The story of bria’s submission

The story of bria’s submission

Bria has been in many abusive relationships before her Jarl found her. He found her one day, on Fetlife.com. Bria can’t remember exactly what their first conversation was about, but Bria knows it was either of high importance or random stuff, nothing in the middle. *smiles*

If felt from the start that it could trust him and tell him anything on my mind. So I did so. At the time I was in the collar of an abuser. The abuser barely talked to me and when we did talk he expected me to love him and want to only have sex with him, after we would play, he would leave right away. He things he did hurt Bria mentally.

I one day told her current Jarl about her ex. He didn’t like it and said that if it hurt being with him, that I should beg for release. I said I told my current Jarl that I didn’t want to leave my ex because I would feel bad; he was in terrible health at the time and was on a breathing machine half the time. He said that I still should.

One night while talking to my Jarl, I decided to call it quits with my ex. I told him, and my Jarl was right there while I cried, he even cried because I was crying. Of course, my ex allowed me to be released and tried to make me feel bad about it. And I did of course feel bad about it; he had a blood transfusion that day earlier and was still on a breathing machine.

I never heard from my ex again, I never wanted to.

After I quit things with my ex, my Jarl said that I didn’t have to submit to him that night, and I didn’t have to this week, only do submit when I felt it was right and that I felt at place. I felt at place form the start. I knelt down with my arms above my head, my wrists crossed, and he took me as his.

Now as of 1/19/12, it is only a few months till it’s been one year that I finally understood that my chains have set my soul and heart free.

My Jarl made me realize that I don’t have to be perfect  24/7, that we all have issues and problems, that I can be cute even if I’m sick, that I am a “kittehn”, that he has a phobia of cheese and even if it’s only on SL, he will still jump on top of a roof and hide, that together and forever do make sense, that his love is forever with me, that no matter what happens, we work together and that I have the most wonderful, caring, sweet, understanding… *cough cough* and sexy *cough cough* Jarl in the world and all of Gor!

And I am so happy that I am HIS Bria, and I will FOREVER be!  J