What is slavery?

What is slavery?
slavery is not about suffering
slavery is about service
slavery is not about humiliation
slavery is about humility
slavery is not about pain
slavery is about being present
slavery is not about being used
slavery is about being of use
slavery is not about control
slavery is about letting go
slavery is not about your desires
slavery is about giving to others
slavery is not about abuse
slavery is about acceptance
slavery is not about proving anything
slavery is about being real
slavery is about respect
slavery is not about how you look
slavery is about how you care
slavery is not about denying yourself
slavery is about discipline
slavery is not about being bale to escape
slavery is about being committed
slavery is about obedience
slavery is not about fear
slavery is about trust
slavery is not about sex
slavery is not about pleasure
slavery is about love
slavery is about happiness

My Jarl's old Sweater.

i see my Jarl sitting in his chair eating quietly. he just got home from his day. i crawl up beside him and nuzzle my cheek against the back of one of his hands, he looks down to me "yes mine?" he says, his voice loud and deep. my eyes look up to him as he licks his fingers clean from the juices of the vulo.

"my Jarl? Do you have any old clothes you nae wear anymore?" i asked as i batted my eyelashes cutely.

"Well, mine, there is a sweater, the brown, worn one....why do ye ask?" he tipped more mead into his mouth.

"me was going to use it to make a piece of clothing out of, instead of my long kirtles, it is getting a tad big warmer. and with me longer kirtles, the verr try to nibble at it.." my chime like voice responded.

"Aye, mine." he said and pointed to teh chest were he kept his clothing.

 i pawed through all the clothing and boots. i finally found it and yanked it out of the chest. there was a hole in the front of it already. i had a pair of scissors and i cut a "v" down to my belly in the sweater. there were pretty patterns on the front side of the shirt, and the shirt smelled of my Jarl, and of mead.the shirt's sleeves were far to long, i had to trim those too.

i slipped the sweater over my head, it was still a little bit box like on me, but it was very soft. i tied a small belt around my waste to make it a bit less box like, soon this sweater became my favorite thing to wear, it reminded me of my Jarl.
~petals


(left click to enlarge the photo of the outfit that inspired me to write this:)

MY lifestyle.

Have you ever seen and compared two lifestyle Goreans? you see differences. One might have to go to work, one might just stay home all day. One might live away from their Owner/slave, one might live with their Owner/slave. One might have a better sense of humor, the Other might not.

Why is this? beucase when people say "this is my lifestyle" it truly is THEIRS. and they go about it the way that it makes sense to THEM. Do you see the theme that i am pokeing at right now?

This morning, i'm not going to say by who, but they qouted another person who called me a "Master baiter." *hears crickets* um. excuse me I HAVE A GOD DAMN OWNER. so...i don't see what's up with that. maybe they call me that beucase i try to be pleasing to the free. (caugh caugh yeah that is what a Gorean slave DOES) and maybe beucase i show a bit of heat in stuff (caughs. yeah because i'm an unrestrcted red silk...duh....)

quote from a good Jarl friend of me and my Jarl.
"[10:06:39 AM] Aedonix Caylios: there seems to be a movement at the moment to make Gor all inclusive.. Gor was not MEANT to be all inclusive.."

which i truly do belive in, i mean really.

people should not bash other people down just beucase they can't do the lifestyle like someone else does. i mean, really, want to bash me down beucase i have a lfie, i go out to party, i drink some whisky or vodka on occasion, i have family matters, i have a damn job and if i wear a lower cut shirt i can't be wearing my collar and i just hide it under a chunky peral necklace. i mean really, want to throw a fit at me about that huh? then quit being a god damn picky person to who you call "non Gorean" and just tell that off to some girl who has muscle issues and can't kneel. i mean really. she can't help muscle problems, i can't help my life. plan. simple.

want to know something fun? the person who made me a bit upset this morning and sparked this posting, yeah well he calls himself a Master...but i mean really, if you leave a big giant fight message and then either A.diable your account or B. block me so i can't reply... who is the "Master" now. really. i'm more civil then the person who told me this -.- if your going to say something as a FreeMan, have the balls to say it, go out there and say it, but make sure that your able to take the pain afterwords. he said it all OOC so that means i can ditch my char and just rant on about how, as we call it, "invalid" he is for saying that, how all of that truly is a lie....i mean really. it is all a lie basically, and how really, blocking me makes you look like a coward that belongs in a collar.

and then he called me a princess. DO YOU SEE A FUCKING TIARA! NO!!!!!! i work my ass off in real life, i do writing as chores, i keep a god damn diary, i cook, i clean, i garden, hell i even haev to do my chores on secodnlife. really. i'm not a spoiled little brat, sometimes i wish i was beucase maybe i'd be slacked a bit on my jobs and chores, but i'd never want that. HELL, i even become an over achiver at times and do more chores and stuff then needed. -.-

Sadly hate to say it, but i only know about three "lifestylers" that i consider my close friends. would you like to know why this is? it's beucase reality sets in and all the other "lifestylers" beat each other up for doing things "wrong" hell, the books don't even go into enough detail for some situations and you just have to think WWTD (what would Tarl do) every lifestyler is attacking one-another over crap, don't belive me? ask one of them, they will tell you that it's true. It seems like everyone is bashing in on everyone lately for doing things differently. hell some girls can't kneel for long periods of time, some people can't wear their collar to sleep beucase htey have panic attacks (hello that one was me) and some can't be close to their Owners beucase of family matters. shit happens, and if you want to be a Master and not a "master" then i hope that you realize that sometimes shit happens and well, that needs to be taken care of.

some girl posted in a gorean group not to long ago on facebook, that she had some family issues to deal with and that she asked if her Owner would understand or what ever, and well, everyone's post was something along the lines of "well, he should. beucase if he doesn't he's not a real Master if he can't understand your family comes first." ya know. so they say that to her, but then to me having work, friends who aren't in the lifestyle, etc, they bash.

What has happened to Gor? now everyone is a bunch of hypocrites. really. it's kind of pathetic that even after them "bitching" at me about MY lifestyle, that i still reply or manner myself in a Gorean way more than them. you don't insult a Gorean's life. do they not know that. let's take for example, a soutehrn man of the deserts goes up to a torive and starts telling the Torvaldslander that "hey, your life is full of bullcrap JUST BECAUSE you do stuff differently from I. so now i'm going to call you invaild, a non gorean, even though we still basically follow the same pricnipals and even though we live on the same planet together, your still invaild, Sir."

*imagines after that the Torvaldslander man pulling a blade from the seath and saying "you insult me?"*

and no that was not JUST a refference between teh south and north differences, i'm saying differences in gerneral. really.

*shakes my head* sorry for the rant. but really people...is this what we are coming to?

~petals 

Throw down some thoughts!

Yes, i'm going to quote some people and throw down their thoughts. Mainly do to what happened this morning and people claiming to be "More Gorean than me"   ((when they don't understand their own placements in this world.))

"Let's face it , Gor doesn't exactly lend to the practice of humility , especially in free men. When you walk into a world where the golden rule is "your a free male and you can do what you want" often gets very misinterpreted by some. Just because you are a free male doesnt make you your own mini-god. From what i understand of gorean society from the books was that the average gorean was proud but not to the point of being so foolish as to think that his was the only sword that would win the day. If anything the average guy was just trying to eke out some sort of living. They wern't stoic , they actually knew how to laugh and not just only with other Free Males, they could engage in light conversation with others of different classes, Free Women and even slaves. "   (http://www.gor-sl.com/index.php?topic=2765.0)

Gorean men can't go piss around. Sure they can do anything they wish, but they have a code to follow, i mean, if you a man and your excuse for doing something bat shit sutpid is "i'm a man i can." sure you can beucase you are a man, but you must be man enough to face those consequences that follow after your actions/words. you should also be able to face the ridicule for doing something stupid "just beucase" my Jarl never does anythign without reason....i think that's how MOST opperate..really.

i mean really. people need to grow a pair. i'm starting to think that some girls i know, slave girls, have bigger balls then some of these "men"

now yes it is odd for me to say "men" and have ME, a slave, judge what a "man" is. want to know what i belive a Gorean man is? many blog sites and such have this written in their own words but this one was the first one i came across that i needed for so yeah. (http://www.angelfire.com/ky3/bakah/mastertraits.html)

TRAITS OF A GOREAN MASTER

Honor... in all

Dominance... of himself and of those who depend on his command

Consistency... in his dealings with freepersons and slaves

Strength... to not be swayed from his principles

Self-assured... not dependent on others for approval

Curiosity... to delve into the individual

Wisdom... to understand what curiosity has discovered

Maturity... to understand, but not misuse, the power of his Mastery

Sensitivity... to have interest in, and to listen keenly for the concerns and issues of others and his slave

Compassion... to hear the true feelings of his slaves, and to deal fairly with issues raised, within the confines of his principles and command

Accountability... to accept the responsibility for the behavior of his slave and himself; to accept responsibility for the safety and security of his slave; and to deal honorably with any issues that arise for either concern

Courage... both to stand up for his principles and honor and the courage to admit a mistake when he recognizes one has been made

Advocate... for the endurance and prosperity of Gorean culture

Ally... standing shoulder to shoulder with other advocates of Gor

Mentor... to others who have need of his example


now, of course, who am i to say and judge who is a Gorean Master and who is just a "master" i mean really. but keep in mind, i'm a slave, i see these things 24/7 365 days a year. so yeah. what do i know *shakes my head*

This weekend indeed!

YAY IT IS FINALLY THE WEEKEND! WHOOOOO

meaning: more time to get my chores done, more time to rp, more time to shop, more time to do photos and edit them for people, more time to bake tasty treats (this is on the list of things to bake this weekend : http://www.myrecipes.com/recipe/puffed-pear-pancake-10000000524106/) and of course, i must re-write my RP story so that gives me a big gap of time to do it so yay!

this end of the week was a bit happier than the beginning  a lot of friends helped me out and told me to keep my head up, not let people get to me, etc.

also it means more time to blog, more time to just relax, and have some time with my Jarl when i can. :)

someone this week said that i was a princess. i denied it...so i asked my Jarl if he thought that i was a princess...he told me to spank myself twice really hard, i did so, he said "no, your not a princess." ahhah! i think i'm starting to really adore my Jarl's way of thinking. he said that if i refused to spank myself hard twice, that i would be a princess.

i got home, this is the point were all that jazz up above is before work, and now this is me at 7:32 EST writing about today. my pear pancake but with apples is baking right now, talked to my Jarl on skype for a bit earlier but i had to go get some stuff to cook and he had other things to attend to.

also, i finally found a song for some of my Ex's  (laughs evily)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTHNpusq654&feature=endscreen&NR=1

i kind of ran out of topics to blab about lately....any suggestions? comment below! or even send me a message on Sl (kittyfini resident) Skype (briakajira) Facebooks (Tomas's Bondmaid) or Fetlife (https://fetlife.com/users/1821310)


~petals

Little things that piss me off about RP Gor....

we all have these things, the little things that annoy the hell out of us, about RP Gor.

for one, some people take it far to seriously and forget about their RL's.

secondly, they bitch at you a bit and look at you weird if you have to go AFK for a long time because of RL

thirdly, really. they have the wrong terms for everything i think, some people need to read the fucking books and forget all that bullcrap.

oh this one makes me mad. Earth is spelled E-A-R-T-H. Nowhere in the books was it spelled "Urth".

this one really gets me going especially because people say that i'm a spoiled rotten princess, which i am not, and my Jarl will testify to that crap. Slaves have two choices: succeed or fail. You are a slave; take off your tiara and be one.

i used to make this mistake but i don't do it much anymore Servery... >.< It's a kitchen. though if i bitch at someone that they are doing it wrong, they will throw a fit, i can throw twenty quotes at them and they still would not change their opinion, throw some quotes at me, i might possibly change my ways. BECAUSE I'M A GOOD GIRL xD

there is no god damn green, yellow, blue, purple, NOT EVEN NEON CLEAR silks anywhere  you are either a red silk or a white silk, put up with that god dammit.

just because you have the SL money, don't go and buy tons of really fancy silks. really, i bring this challenge to you, why would they waste dye on clothing for slaves? really. especially bonds, i'm a bit of a hypocrite there but i majority wear neutral colors. you don't do chores in your fancy silks girls, put on a damn camisk! those silks are for dancing...not for what you think they are for -.-

last but not least. there are no damn female warriors, i'm a hypocrite sometimes at this because in OOC (out of character) i like to go to the arena and play with my weapons for a bit. i have a lot of primus and torivs weapons and a few odd ball ones, but they are mainly slave weapons like rocks, rock slingshots etc. so yes, i do fight, but only as self defense were city/village rules permit or OOC just for fun. free women can protect themselves  but really, there was no female in the red caste.

Today

Today is surely a happy day!

some people know why, others do not, anyways, i digress.

i went shopping on secondlife today, i did some chores, i birthed a baby bosk,(which yes my Jarl made a big joke about) i did some photography on Secondlife and i am TOTALLY excited about being one of the 12 photographers in an upcoming photo exhibition this Saturday  i plan on dragging my Jarl along with me to it so he can be there and see what i do, *giggles* and of course so i can annoy him. if not, i will surely bring another Jarl to come to the event with me *smiles and laughs evilly*

not too much time to banter on here, i must go to Primus and get a new toy (weapon) for my AVI then must practice it with a target on my parcel *huggles to all* thanks for the support these past weeks and so forth!

~petals the jumpy happy horny bond!

Difference between a slave, a sub, and of course, a kajira

Now first off, when I say "kajira" i mean bonds, tuchuck girlies, the girls of the sand lands, my sisters in the snow, and possible women who can be captured and collared. (because yes, it will sometimes eventually happen.) saying that as a note.

Well, today i have a really bad headache, too much stress, but on with the writing I must go!

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Submissive (sub)

my Definition:

well, i see someone who calls them self's a "submissive" as a person who has taken the choice of submitting themselves to another. letting yourself be given into the control of another person or force. Note the "giving into and choice"


this is what happens when i type in "definition of submission." into Google.com

sub·mis·sion  

/səbˈmiSHən/

Noun The action or fact of accepting or yielding to a superior force or to the will or authority of another person. An act of surrendering to a hold by one's opponent.

Synonyms obedience - subjection - subordination some photos of submission? WHY NOT!

and of course you can always Google more but it majority wise turns out to be stuff like above or girls being held roughly and getting spankings etc. just letting you know, that's what happens if you Google image search it.

when i was younger and new to the whole BDSM world, I did chose the path of the submissive knowing that it was involving my choice. The reason being, i was new to that part of the life, i didn't know as much, i wanted to have that secrutiy of choice just incase, still today in my Gorean part of my life, when it pertains to my RL lifestyle of the Gorean ways, i have limits, i have boundries, some of them are debateable, some of them are hard as rock, like if i was to ever visit an Owner of mine in real life, i would like the security of being able to leave when ever i felt i needed too just incase something goes wrong, most people would like things like that as well, but that whole thing right there is another blog posting entirely.

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Slave/Slavery

Okay so now moving onto Slave.

my definition  Someone who is rightfully owned by someone else, either by law or claim of the other person. They are stuck in their servery forever until released.

this is what happens if i type in "definition of slave" in Google.

slave  

/slāv/

Noun A person who is the legal property of another and is forced to obey them.

Verb Work excessively hard: "slaving away for all those years".

Synonyms noun.   thrall - helot - bondslave - serf - bondservant - bondman verb.   drudge i also looked up the word "slavery" slav·er·y   /ˈslāvərē/ Noun The state of being a slave. The practice or system of owning slaves. Synonyms servitude - thraldom - thrall - enslavement - serfdom

now, right now, i do consider myself a slave in a "general" context.

i am legit "gorean legally wise" property of a Man, my Jarl. I am not "forced" to obey him, and i don't think that any slave is "forced" they just have to chose either obey or be punished.

pictures of slaves and or slavery?

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Kajira

And now last but not least, we have the "kajira" side of things.

my definition: a Gorean slave girl

surprisingly.... Google DOES have a definition, and it isn't that far off of what i expected it to be.

kajira  

Web definitions Kajira is the term for female slave or "slave-girl" in John Norman's Gor novels. Slaves in the Gorean lifestyle will refer... en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kajira (note, the misspellings in the paragraphs that have quotation marks around them are there because that is what was in the website.) also, surprisingly, the Urban dictionary has just about everything i was going to talk about in this... weird huh? "a made-up word literally translated to "slave girl" within the fiction of john norman. gorean slaves are trained to be totally obediant to their masters, they are not "submissives." a good kajira is beautiful, obediant and willful enough to provide entertainment and sport in her capture and subsiquent use. while a slave herself owns nothing, her value is set on her beauty and skills, and she can be sold like any other piece of property. the word has almost no practical function in the real world, at least with this definition, considering the impracticalities of implamenting these beliefs to modern society. it is only commonly used in gorean roleplay online, and at functions of likeminded individuals in the privacy of their homes." and then refering to the male slaves of gor:  "male slave within the Gorean lifestyle, just like a kajira pertains to a female gorean slave, from the fictional books of gor written by John Norman, that have over the years become a lifestyle choice for many in following some of the components of what taking the examples of the writtings into real life.. following that Gor is a male dominated world, kajirus arent as highly prized as kajira would be.. and therefore most kajirus would be either male servants to high ranking women (free companions or the men) or elsewize be responsible for the heavier tasks that needed doing the thinking being (as per the books) that a kajirus wouldn't willingly accept slavery, and would choose death above loosing His freedom.." pictures of Gorean slaves?

Ups and Downs

stole this from a Jarl.
Handy slave tip #443.7  Paint irises and pupils on your eyelids so you always have that attentive look about you

well, have been away from blogging for a while, i know, i know, sinful isn't it. RL has called me away for a long time, RP on IMVU and such, it's been a hard week this week. Also slightly been bored and lazy. giggles.

by the way, i did do my SL chores and such, birthed a bosk, brewed some sul-paga, worked on some cooking to keep the food in the longhall up, then went to Jarl Aedonix's show! there i learned my new favorite thing *laughs* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dqRRW9lKmEQ

something that bugs me, yes, make a memorial thing for a girl that lasted a few weeks and not one that lasted 8 months perfect sense. i'm really getting fed up with stuff and drama and feeling like shit. really. i don't want a fucking memorial thing or mopey words in someone's profile, but it makes me think "i wasted 8 months....and never was there a word spoken of me, she lasts two maybe three weeks and she gets his heart and words to patch the holes. wonderful. i guess i was really what he said was his 'treasured girl' sighs" he throws a fit, stays up nearly two full days sulking, crys a few hours with me, tells me it's "him not me" which has become more aware to me that it truly is me, i'm a crappy slave to him for some reason, yet my Jarl thinks i'm the most beautiful important thing to him. weird huh? how different people see things differently. so cry over me a few hours, sleep well, and go on about your life like nothing happened. i like how i invest 110% into something and the other doesn't even come close in effort. i tried harder to make it work then him, and every time i tried to make it work, he would shoot down my idea and call it phooey. because ya know, what ever i did, he would never commit to. i realized something about two months ago, in order for a relationship to be fixed, both have to work at it. and that didn't happen so i guess that i wasn't worth saving to him. like my Jarl says "His loss." i just have to keep thinking "His loss." maybe then things will clear up.

i just feel like i have no place now. really. ya know what ever, he won't listen to me or anyone. so why bother. he's no good no matter what. and i have to face that. i was "treasured" which meant last in line, last to be talked to unless needed to listen to him or needed for serving. and now truly i see how i weigh out. i guess i was that "piece of shit" girl he had the one that "mouths off" and "doesn't do as commanded" the "fit thrower" and the "brat." not to mention "the fussy whiny cry baby." yeah. i fuss if you say that someone was more important than me at the time. be a man, if i was not important, you should not have said it at the time, shouldn't have said it just to make me feel better, because it's lies and we all know lies only lead to hurt. I'm just tired of all of this. sometimes i wish he would grow up say "i'm sorry I've been such an ass to you. i'm sorry that I've made you hurt when it was unnecessary  i lost you, and now i don't have you. i shouldn't ruin your life any farther then the night we broke did. i'm sorry" but ya know, i'm not worth an apologies to him for some reason. all he does is mope about her. she's a lucky girl....she got more fits thrown over her than i did, she must be fucking cream of the crop or something. actually i'd like to also hear him say with a dead cold stare to me "you were nothing to me" if he can do it, then i really was. case closed. if he can't do it, then that means i was something to him, just something un-noticed, something that i guess wasn't enough of a "something" to care about.

though, tapping into my gorean point, i'm just a girl. They are just Free. i must serve them and be found pleasing by them. so now that i had my fit right here, it's time to just go and isolate myself so i don't say anything else that isn't "Gorean" because ya know, people don't like hearing my personal life and like to throw fits about it randomly.

know what, fuck today. i just need my Jarl here to cry on his shoulder and just tell him what an asshole some people are. and yes, i will deliberately show Jarl who has his priorities messed up this. i'm not afraid to be an ass like him.

i won't be stupid and go far to beat myself up for this, i did nothing wrong.

and here goes my gorean side "shut up and deal with it. just go to the farms and lay behind some verr, sit on the grass with the snow melting around it, stare into the forest for a bit and chill..."

so here i end my post of the day, might add another one tonight if anything changes and i gain some energy, i just want to just chill, take a nice long shower, and say "fuck you" to the world. *sighs*

~petals. some day in may... i lose track on weekends.