Were have i been? O_O

yes, if it has not come to your attention yet...i have been away.
for
an
awfully
long
time

final.


anyways today while i was sitting outside eating a cup o' noodles (yes i'm so fancy) and looking at the sunset while listing to the song "handmade celebrity" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3qy4ZkacMo0) it reminded me to write my blog. hell if i know why. infact right now, i am finishing such cup o noodle meal and typing. joy right?

so. what has happened and why have a left?

let's answer the "why have i left" portion first!

well, secondlife gor has gone to drama shit pieces. (if you don't know already.) so i shut down DLP (my gor photography stuff) and i mean...there's just no place for me at the moment in secondlife gor. there is just too much drama going on...etc. i mean, in RP villages, i can't be there because my Jarl doesn't technically claim that place as his homestone so it's not like i can "go" anywhere and RP with someone or what ever. secondly, "lifestyle" citys....gosh...they are SO confusing. i mean. they say "no Rp at all" well if a Jarl comes into the damn tavern and asks for some paga...what am i to do? toss it at his face? pretend like it was served. serving is RP, so is dancing...and then the whole "oh you have to kneel if your not walking or dancing" crap. -.- oh my gosh! if they really did that, those girl's would be worthless very quickly dammit. and then the girls wearing dance like silks when doing normal stuff...in the books, they didn't have silks like that for chores and what not, it was a camisk for chores in the south, or what ever variation but defiantly not EVERY girl wore fine dance silks constantly, maybe the Ubar's girl but not every single girl. so it's kinda messed up. so i don't really go on Sl as much.

i've been away to rl for a bit to because work got UBER demanding...my Jarl's rl is busy too at the moment so we're both like away right now.

random thought: i wonder if chewbacca is cuddly....

ANYWAYS:

so you can reach me...on my fetilife page (https://fetlife.com/users/1821310) and if you friend me on there i just might hand you my skype ID and we could keep together :)

i gota go though, must go to the store and relax and sleep, i have a cold in real life.


Odin's eye upon ye and yers.


~petals, Bond of Jarl Tomas.

What is slavery?

What is slavery?
slavery is not about suffering
slavery is about service
slavery is not about humiliation
slavery is about humility
slavery is not about pain
slavery is about being present
slavery is not about being used
slavery is about being of use
slavery is not about control
slavery is about letting go
slavery is not about your desires
slavery is about giving to others
slavery is not about abuse
slavery is about acceptance
slavery is not about proving anything
slavery is about being real
slavery is about respect
slavery is not about how you look
slavery is about how you care
slavery is not about denying yourself
slavery is about discipline
slavery is not about being bale to escape
slavery is about being committed
slavery is about obedience
slavery is not about fear
slavery is about trust
slavery is not about sex
slavery is not about pleasure
slavery is about love
slavery is about happiness

My Jarl's old Sweater.

i see my Jarl sitting in his chair eating quietly. he just got home from his day. i crawl up beside him and nuzzle my cheek against the back of one of his hands, he looks down to me "yes mine?" he says, his voice loud and deep. my eyes look up to him as he licks his fingers clean from the juices of the vulo.

"my Jarl? Do you have any old clothes you nae wear anymore?" i asked as i batted my eyelashes cutely.

"Well, mine, there is a sweater, the brown, worn one....why do ye ask?" he tipped more mead into his mouth.

"me was going to use it to make a piece of clothing out of, instead of my long kirtles, it is getting a tad big warmer. and with me longer kirtles, the verr try to nibble at it.." my chime like voice responded.

"Aye, mine." he said and pointed to teh chest were he kept his clothing.

 i pawed through all the clothing and boots. i finally found it and yanked it out of the chest. there was a hole in the front of it already. i had a pair of scissors and i cut a "v" down to my belly in the sweater. there were pretty patterns on the front side of the shirt, and the shirt smelled of my Jarl, and of mead.the shirt's sleeves were far to long, i had to trim those too.

i slipped the sweater over my head, it was still a little bit box like on me, but it was very soft. i tied a small belt around my waste to make it a bit less box like, soon this sweater became my favorite thing to wear, it reminded me of my Jarl.
~petals


(left click to enlarge the photo of the outfit that inspired me to write this:)

MY lifestyle.

Have you ever seen and compared two lifestyle Goreans? you see differences. One might have to go to work, one might just stay home all day. One might live away from their Owner/slave, one might live with their Owner/slave. One might have a better sense of humor, the Other might not.

Why is this? beucase when people say "this is my lifestyle" it truly is THEIRS. and they go about it the way that it makes sense to THEM. Do you see the theme that i am pokeing at right now?

This morning, i'm not going to say by who, but they qouted another person who called me a "Master baiter." *hears crickets* um. excuse me I HAVE A GOD DAMN OWNER. so...i don't see what's up with that. maybe they call me that beucase i try to be pleasing to the free. (caugh caugh yeah that is what a Gorean slave DOES) and maybe beucase i show a bit of heat in stuff (caughs. yeah because i'm an unrestrcted red silk...duh....)

quote from a good Jarl friend of me and my Jarl.
"[10:06:39 AM] Aedonix Caylios: there seems to be a movement at the moment to make Gor all inclusive.. Gor was not MEANT to be all inclusive.."

which i truly do belive in, i mean really.

people should not bash other people down just beucase they can't do the lifestyle like someone else does. i mean, really, want to bash me down beucase i have a lfie, i go out to party, i drink some whisky or vodka on occasion, i have family matters, i have a damn job and if i wear a lower cut shirt i can't be wearing my collar and i just hide it under a chunky peral necklace. i mean really, want to throw a fit at me about that huh? then quit being a god damn picky person to who you call "non Gorean" and just tell that off to some girl who has muscle issues and can't kneel. i mean really. she can't help muscle problems, i can't help my life. plan. simple.

want to know something fun? the person who made me a bit upset this morning and sparked this posting, yeah well he calls himself a Master...but i mean really, if you leave a big giant fight message and then either A.diable your account or B. block me so i can't reply... who is the "Master" now. really. i'm more civil then the person who told me this -.- if your going to say something as a FreeMan, have the balls to say it, go out there and say it, but make sure that your able to take the pain afterwords. he said it all OOC so that means i can ditch my char and just rant on about how, as we call it, "invalid" he is for saying that, how all of that truly is a lie....i mean really. it is all a lie basically, and how really, blocking me makes you look like a coward that belongs in a collar.

and then he called me a princess. DO YOU SEE A FUCKING TIARA! NO!!!!!! i work my ass off in real life, i do writing as chores, i keep a god damn diary, i cook, i clean, i garden, hell i even haev to do my chores on secodnlife. really. i'm not a spoiled little brat, sometimes i wish i was beucase maybe i'd be slacked a bit on my jobs and chores, but i'd never want that. HELL, i even become an over achiver at times and do more chores and stuff then needed. -.-

Sadly hate to say it, but i only know about three "lifestylers" that i consider my close friends. would you like to know why this is? it's beucase reality sets in and all the other "lifestylers" beat each other up for doing things "wrong" hell, the books don't even go into enough detail for some situations and you just have to think WWTD (what would Tarl do) every lifestyler is attacking one-another over crap, don't belive me? ask one of them, they will tell you that it's true. It seems like everyone is bashing in on everyone lately for doing things differently. hell some girls can't kneel for long periods of time, some people can't wear their collar to sleep beucase htey have panic attacks (hello that one was me) and some can't be close to their Owners beucase of family matters. shit happens, and if you want to be a Master and not a "master" then i hope that you realize that sometimes shit happens and well, that needs to be taken care of.

some girl posted in a gorean group not to long ago on facebook, that she had some family issues to deal with and that she asked if her Owner would understand or what ever, and well, everyone's post was something along the lines of "well, he should. beucase if he doesn't he's not a real Master if he can't understand your family comes first." ya know. so they say that to her, but then to me having work, friends who aren't in the lifestyle, etc, they bash.

What has happened to Gor? now everyone is a bunch of hypocrites. really. it's kind of pathetic that even after them "bitching" at me about MY lifestyle, that i still reply or manner myself in a Gorean way more than them. you don't insult a Gorean's life. do they not know that. let's take for example, a soutehrn man of the deserts goes up to a torive and starts telling the Torvaldslander that "hey, your life is full of bullcrap JUST BECAUSE you do stuff differently from I. so now i'm going to call you invaild, a non gorean, even though we still basically follow the same pricnipals and even though we live on the same planet together, your still invaild, Sir."

*imagines after that the Torvaldslander man pulling a blade from the seath and saying "you insult me?"*

and no that was not JUST a refference between teh south and north differences, i'm saying differences in gerneral. really.

*shakes my head* sorry for the rant. but really people...is this what we are coming to?

~petals 

Throw down some thoughts!

Yes, i'm going to quote some people and throw down their thoughts. Mainly do to what happened this morning and people claiming to be "More Gorean than me"   ((when they don't understand their own placements in this world.))

"Let's face it , Gor doesn't exactly lend to the practice of humility , especially in free men. When you walk into a world where the golden rule is "your a free male and you can do what you want" often gets very misinterpreted by some. Just because you are a free male doesnt make you your own mini-god. From what i understand of gorean society from the books was that the average gorean was proud but not to the point of being so foolish as to think that his was the only sword that would win the day. If anything the average guy was just trying to eke out some sort of living. They wern't stoic , they actually knew how to laugh and not just only with other Free Males, they could engage in light conversation with others of different classes, Free Women and even slaves. "   (http://www.gor-sl.com/index.php?topic=2765.0)

Gorean men can't go piss around. Sure they can do anything they wish, but they have a code to follow, i mean, if you a man and your excuse for doing something bat shit sutpid is "i'm a man i can." sure you can beucase you are a man, but you must be man enough to face those consequences that follow after your actions/words. you should also be able to face the ridicule for doing something stupid "just beucase" my Jarl never does anythign without reason....i think that's how MOST opperate..really.

i mean really. people need to grow a pair. i'm starting to think that some girls i know, slave girls, have bigger balls then some of these "men"

now yes it is odd for me to say "men" and have ME, a slave, judge what a "man" is. want to know what i belive a Gorean man is? many blog sites and such have this written in their own words but this one was the first one i came across that i needed for so yeah. (http://www.angelfire.com/ky3/bakah/mastertraits.html)

TRAITS OF A GOREAN MASTER

Honor... in all

Dominance... of himself and of those who depend on his command

Consistency... in his dealings with freepersons and slaves

Strength... to not be swayed from his principles

Self-assured... not dependent on others for approval

Curiosity... to delve into the individual

Wisdom... to understand what curiosity has discovered

Maturity... to understand, but not misuse, the power of his Mastery

Sensitivity... to have interest in, and to listen keenly for the concerns and issues of others and his slave

Compassion... to hear the true feelings of his slaves, and to deal fairly with issues raised, within the confines of his principles and command

Accountability... to accept the responsibility for the behavior of his slave and himself; to accept responsibility for the safety and security of his slave; and to deal honorably with any issues that arise for either concern

Courage... both to stand up for his principles and honor and the courage to admit a mistake when he recognizes one has been made

Advocate... for the endurance and prosperity of Gorean culture

Ally... standing shoulder to shoulder with other advocates of Gor

Mentor... to others who have need of his example


now, of course, who am i to say and judge who is a Gorean Master and who is just a "master" i mean really. but keep in mind, i'm a slave, i see these things 24/7 365 days a year. so yeah. what do i know *shakes my head*

This weekend indeed!

YAY IT IS FINALLY THE WEEKEND! WHOOOOO

meaning: more time to get my chores done, more time to rp, more time to shop, more time to do photos and edit them for people, more time to bake tasty treats (this is on the list of things to bake this weekend : http://www.myrecipes.com/recipe/puffed-pear-pancake-10000000524106/) and of course, i must re-write my RP story so that gives me a big gap of time to do it so yay!

this end of the week was a bit happier than the beginning  a lot of friends helped me out and told me to keep my head up, not let people get to me, etc.

also it means more time to blog, more time to just relax, and have some time with my Jarl when i can. :)

someone this week said that i was a princess. i denied it...so i asked my Jarl if he thought that i was a princess...he told me to spank myself twice really hard, i did so, he said "no, your not a princess." ahhah! i think i'm starting to really adore my Jarl's way of thinking. he said that if i refused to spank myself hard twice, that i would be a princess.

i got home, this is the point were all that jazz up above is before work, and now this is me at 7:32 EST writing about today. my pear pancake but with apples is baking right now, talked to my Jarl on skype for a bit earlier but i had to go get some stuff to cook and he had other things to attend to.

also, i finally found a song for some of my Ex's  (laughs evily)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kTHNpusq654&feature=endscreen&NR=1

i kind of ran out of topics to blab about lately....any suggestions? comment below! or even send me a message on Sl (kittyfini resident) Skype (briakajira) Facebooks (Tomas's Bondmaid) or Fetlife (https://fetlife.com/users/1821310)


~petals

Little things that piss me off about RP Gor....

we all have these things, the little things that annoy the hell out of us, about RP Gor.

for one, some people take it far to seriously and forget about their RL's.

secondly, they bitch at you a bit and look at you weird if you have to go AFK for a long time because of RL

thirdly, really. they have the wrong terms for everything i think, some people need to read the fucking books and forget all that bullcrap.

oh this one makes me mad. Earth is spelled E-A-R-T-H. Nowhere in the books was it spelled "Urth".

this one really gets me going especially because people say that i'm a spoiled rotten princess, which i am not, and my Jarl will testify to that crap. Slaves have two choices: succeed or fail. You are a slave; take off your tiara and be one.

i used to make this mistake but i don't do it much anymore Servery... >.< It's a kitchen. though if i bitch at someone that they are doing it wrong, they will throw a fit, i can throw twenty quotes at them and they still would not change their opinion, throw some quotes at me, i might possibly change my ways. BECAUSE I'M A GOOD GIRL xD

there is no god damn green, yellow, blue, purple, NOT EVEN NEON CLEAR silks anywhere  you are either a red silk or a white silk, put up with that god dammit.

just because you have the SL money, don't go and buy tons of really fancy silks. really, i bring this challenge to you, why would they waste dye on clothing for slaves? really. especially bonds, i'm a bit of a hypocrite there but i majority wear neutral colors. you don't do chores in your fancy silks girls, put on a damn camisk! those silks are for dancing...not for what you think they are for -.-

last but not least. there are no damn female warriors, i'm a hypocrite sometimes at this because in OOC (out of character) i like to go to the arena and play with my weapons for a bit. i have a lot of primus and torivs weapons and a few odd ball ones, but they are mainly slave weapons like rocks, rock slingshots etc. so yes, i do fight, but only as self defense were city/village rules permit or OOC just for fun. free women can protect themselves  but really, there was no female in the red caste.