Today

Today is surely a happy day!

some people know why, others do not, anyways, i digress.

i went shopping on secondlife today, i did some chores, i birthed a baby bosk,(which yes my Jarl made a big joke about) i did some photography on Secondlife and i am TOTALLY excited about being one of the 12 photographers in an upcoming photo exhibition this Saturday  i plan on dragging my Jarl along with me to it so he can be there and see what i do, *giggles* and of course so i can annoy him. if not, i will surely bring another Jarl to come to the event with me *smiles and laughs evilly*

not too much time to banter on here, i must go to Primus and get a new toy (weapon) for my AVI then must practice it with a target on my parcel *huggles to all* thanks for the support these past weeks and so forth!

~petals the jumpy happy horny bond!

Difference between a slave, a sub, and of course, a kajira

Now first off, when I say "kajira" i mean bonds, tuchuck girlies, the girls of the sand lands, my sisters in the snow, and possible women who can be captured and collared. (because yes, it will sometimes eventually happen.) saying that as a note.

Well, today i have a really bad headache, too much stress, but on with the writing I must go!

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Submissive (sub)

my Definition:

well, i see someone who calls them self's a "submissive" as a person who has taken the choice of submitting themselves to another. letting yourself be given into the control of another person or force. Note the "giving into and choice"


this is what happens when i type in "definition of submission." into Google.com

sub·mis·sion  

/səbˈmiSHən/

Noun The action or fact of accepting or yielding to a superior force or to the will or authority of another person. An act of surrendering to a hold by one's opponent.

Synonyms obedience - subjection - subordination some photos of submission? WHY NOT!

and of course you can always Google more but it majority wise turns out to be stuff like above or girls being held roughly and getting spankings etc. just letting you know, that's what happens if you Google image search it.

when i was younger and new to the whole BDSM world, I did chose the path of the submissive knowing that it was involving my choice. The reason being, i was new to that part of the life, i didn't know as much, i wanted to have that secrutiy of choice just incase, still today in my Gorean part of my life, when it pertains to my RL lifestyle of the Gorean ways, i have limits, i have boundries, some of them are debateable, some of them are hard as rock, like if i was to ever visit an Owner of mine in real life, i would like the security of being able to leave when ever i felt i needed too just incase something goes wrong, most people would like things like that as well, but that whole thing right there is another blog posting entirely.

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Slave/Slavery

Okay so now moving onto Slave.

my definition  Someone who is rightfully owned by someone else, either by law or claim of the other person. They are stuck in their servery forever until released.

this is what happens if i type in "definition of slave" in Google.

slave  

/slāv/

Noun A person who is the legal property of another and is forced to obey them.

Verb Work excessively hard: "slaving away for all those years".

Synonyms noun.   thrall - helot - bondslave - serf - bondservant - bondman verb.   drudge i also looked up the word "slavery" slav·er·y   /ˈslāvərē/ Noun The state of being a slave. The practice or system of owning slaves. Synonyms servitude - thraldom - thrall - enslavement - serfdom

now, right now, i do consider myself a slave in a "general" context.

i am legit "gorean legally wise" property of a Man, my Jarl. I am not "forced" to obey him, and i don't think that any slave is "forced" they just have to chose either obey or be punished.

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Kajira

And now last but not least, we have the "kajira" side of things.

my definition: a Gorean slave girl

surprisingly.... Google DOES have a definition, and it isn't that far off of what i expected it to be.

kajira  

Web definitions Kajira is the term for female slave or "slave-girl" in John Norman's Gor novels. Slaves in the Gorean lifestyle will refer... en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kajira (note, the misspellings in the paragraphs that have quotation marks around them are there because that is what was in the website.) also, surprisingly, the Urban dictionary has just about everything i was going to talk about in this... weird huh? "a made-up word literally translated to "slave girl" within the fiction of john norman. gorean slaves are trained to be totally obediant to their masters, they are not "submissives." a good kajira is beautiful, obediant and willful enough to provide entertainment and sport in her capture and subsiquent use. while a slave herself owns nothing, her value is set on her beauty and skills, and she can be sold like any other piece of property. the word has almost no practical function in the real world, at least with this definition, considering the impracticalities of implamenting these beliefs to modern society. it is only commonly used in gorean roleplay online, and at functions of likeminded individuals in the privacy of their homes." and then refering to the male slaves of gor:  "male slave within the Gorean lifestyle, just like a kajira pertains to a female gorean slave, from the fictional books of gor written by John Norman, that have over the years become a lifestyle choice for many in following some of the components of what taking the examples of the writtings into real life.. following that Gor is a male dominated world, kajirus arent as highly prized as kajira would be.. and therefore most kajirus would be either male servants to high ranking women (free companions or the men) or elsewize be responsible for the heavier tasks that needed doing the thinking being (as per the books) that a kajirus wouldn't willingly accept slavery, and would choose death above loosing His freedom.." pictures of Gorean slaves?

Ups and Downs

stole this from a Jarl.
Handy slave tip #443.7  Paint irises and pupils on your eyelids so you always have that attentive look about you

well, have been away from blogging for a while, i know, i know, sinful isn't it. RL has called me away for a long time, RP on IMVU and such, it's been a hard week this week. Also slightly been bored and lazy. giggles.

by the way, i did do my SL chores and such, birthed a bosk, brewed some sul-paga, worked on some cooking to keep the food in the longhall up, then went to Jarl Aedonix's show! there i learned my new favorite thing *laughs* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dqRRW9lKmEQ

something that bugs me, yes, make a memorial thing for a girl that lasted a few weeks and not one that lasted 8 months perfect sense. i'm really getting fed up with stuff and drama and feeling like shit. really. i don't want a fucking memorial thing or mopey words in someone's profile, but it makes me think "i wasted 8 months....and never was there a word spoken of me, she lasts two maybe three weeks and she gets his heart and words to patch the holes. wonderful. i guess i was really what he said was his 'treasured girl' sighs" he throws a fit, stays up nearly two full days sulking, crys a few hours with me, tells me it's "him not me" which has become more aware to me that it truly is me, i'm a crappy slave to him for some reason, yet my Jarl thinks i'm the most beautiful important thing to him. weird huh? how different people see things differently. so cry over me a few hours, sleep well, and go on about your life like nothing happened. i like how i invest 110% into something and the other doesn't even come close in effort. i tried harder to make it work then him, and every time i tried to make it work, he would shoot down my idea and call it phooey. because ya know, what ever i did, he would never commit to. i realized something about two months ago, in order for a relationship to be fixed, both have to work at it. and that didn't happen so i guess that i wasn't worth saving to him. like my Jarl says "His loss." i just have to keep thinking "His loss." maybe then things will clear up.

i just feel like i have no place now. really. ya know what ever, he won't listen to me or anyone. so why bother. he's no good no matter what. and i have to face that. i was "treasured" which meant last in line, last to be talked to unless needed to listen to him or needed for serving. and now truly i see how i weigh out. i guess i was that "piece of shit" girl he had the one that "mouths off" and "doesn't do as commanded" the "fit thrower" and the "brat." not to mention "the fussy whiny cry baby." yeah. i fuss if you say that someone was more important than me at the time. be a man, if i was not important, you should not have said it at the time, shouldn't have said it just to make me feel better, because it's lies and we all know lies only lead to hurt. I'm just tired of all of this. sometimes i wish he would grow up say "i'm sorry I've been such an ass to you. i'm sorry that I've made you hurt when it was unnecessary  i lost you, and now i don't have you. i shouldn't ruin your life any farther then the night we broke did. i'm sorry" but ya know, i'm not worth an apologies to him for some reason. all he does is mope about her. she's a lucky girl....she got more fits thrown over her than i did, she must be fucking cream of the crop or something. actually i'd like to also hear him say with a dead cold stare to me "you were nothing to me" if he can do it, then i really was. case closed. if he can't do it, then that means i was something to him, just something un-noticed, something that i guess wasn't enough of a "something" to care about.

though, tapping into my gorean point, i'm just a girl. They are just Free. i must serve them and be found pleasing by them. so now that i had my fit right here, it's time to just go and isolate myself so i don't say anything else that isn't "Gorean" because ya know, people don't like hearing my personal life and like to throw fits about it randomly.

know what, fuck today. i just need my Jarl here to cry on his shoulder and just tell him what an asshole some people are. and yes, i will deliberately show Jarl who has his priorities messed up this. i'm not afraid to be an ass like him.

i won't be stupid and go far to beat myself up for this, i did nothing wrong.

and here goes my gorean side "shut up and deal with it. just go to the farms and lay behind some verr, sit on the grass with the snow melting around it, stare into the forest for a bit and chill..."

so here i end my post of the day, might add another one tonight if anything changes and i gain some energy, i just want to just chill, take a nice long shower, and say "fuck you" to the world. *sighs*

~petals. some day in may... i lose track on weekends.

For once, I don't know.

tonight...time ticks, i can hear my air conditioner humming, my grandfather clock ticking, the trucks outside on the highway not to far from my house, the warehouses making noise as they work late into the night.

here i sit, with a sun burn, on my living room floor on a scrap of fur as i listen to music and try to finish some work papers.

i don't know what tonight is. for some reason, i feel like i have to blog about it. it's just one of my down moments. maybe it's my music but i doubt it is. i just feel anxious and worried about a few things that go on in my mind, those un-battled wars within myself, the problems i chose not to asess right now, those feelings i shy away from.

just some things rattling around in my mind. both the people who know basically my whole life's story and that i'm in Gor and such, un-conviently are away, one is asleep, the other is probably either getting to bed himself or with some friends. those people you know, the ones that say "i will be here for you" sometimes i believe that, it makes me feel more secure to do so, other times i believe that they are just a wall for my mind to put up to escape from reality and just run away form life it's self, to hide myself from the harsh world, and close myself in a box.

i have things to say, that i don't want to say as i will regret them later on, and, that is not a good thing. i have been down this same road before, though i had a different feeling, i was not afraid of saying my words, though now times have changed, things have changed, i'm afraid of losing everything i worked for in my life over this, to lose things valuable like trust and honor  these things i hold near and dear to me. though, we all have things that we lock up in a box with chains in our minds, things that we hide deliberately to keep others from thinking different of us. i will be the first to admit this fact, indeed.

though, i do have paperwork to attend to, aloe to rub all over me, a drink to drink, and a bed to sleep in for tomorrow  been a busy weekend, maybe that is what is messing me up, or maybe i'm a little attention deprived. maybe i'm seeing things in a manner i'd rather not see. maybe i'm just feeling a bit of sub drop and just feel like shit in my servery and feel bad about it and what i do. maybe it's just the sun burn talking and the heat of the sun here. maybe there really is something bigger. i don't know yet. tonight has been odd and un-explainable  apologies for the mopey post, but this blog has everything, being a slave, isn't always about the highlights of life, a lot of it sucks ass.

life's a bitch.

~petals

Made butter! (chores)

wheeee! did LOTS of G&S chores, made a lota butter!

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[14:32] Second Life: COCINA[G&S] owned by Sombra Magic gave you 'Mantequilla / Butter [G&S]'  ( Bestone (229,150,3500) ).
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[14:33] Cocina Magica [G&S] - Min model: Delivering : Cream
[14:33] Second Life: COCINA[G&S] owned by Sombra Magic gave you 'Nata /  Cream [G&S]'  ( Bestone (229,150,3500) ).
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[14:36] Second Life: Steinn Sture (steinn) is Offline
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[14:42] Cocina Magica [G&S] - Min model: (Click) before burning the food.
[14:42] Cocina Magica [G&S] - Min model: Delivering : Butter
[14:43] Second Life: COCINA[G&S] owned by Sombra Magic gave you 'Mantequilla / Butter [G&S]'  ( Bestone (229,150,3500) ).
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[14:45] Second Life: John Castle (johncastle) is Online
[14:46] Cocina Magica [G&S] - Min model: (Click) before burning the food.
[14:46] Cocina Magica [G&S] - Min model: Delivering : Cream
[14:46] Second Life: COCINA[G&S] owned by Sombra Magic gave you 'Nata /  Cream [G&S]'  ( Bestone (229,150,3500) ).
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[14:49] Mini Mania: Unfortunately you didn't win this time. However, in a few moments time our Mini-Mania will be open for new entries - perhaps you'll be lucky in the next round! Visit us at: Bellmer (175,2,23)
[14:49] Cocina Magica [G&S] - Min model: (Click) before burning the food.
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[14:49] Second Life: COCINA[G&S] owned by Sombra Magic gave you 'Nata /  Cream [G&S]'  ( Bestone (229,150,3500) ).
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[14:51] Second Life: Setive is Online
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[14:51] Second Life: Can't rez object at { 80.5248, 99.7574, 2346.63 } because the owner of this land does not allow it.  Use the land tool to see land ownership.
[14:52] Second Life: COCINA[G&S] owned by Sombra Magic gave you 'Nata /  Cream [G&S]'  ( Bestone (229,150,3500) ).
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[14:53] Second Life: COCINA[G&S] owned by Sombra Magic gave you 'Nata /  Cream [G&S]'  ( Bestone (229,150,3500) ).
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[14:55] Cocina Magica [G&S] - Min model: Delivering : Butter
[14:55] Second Life: COCINA[G&S] owned by Sombra Magic gave you 'Mantequilla / Butter [G&S]'  ( Bestone (229,150,3500) ).
[14:55] Second Life: Muninn (moonsky1981) is Online
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[14:57] Second Life: COCINA[G&S] owned by Sombra Magic gave you 'Nata /  Cream [G&S]'  ( Bestone (229,150,3500) ).
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[14:57] Second Life: Teri Sturges is Offline
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[14:59] Second Life: COCINA[G&S] owned by Sombra Magic gave you 'Nata /  Cream [G&S]'  ( Bestone (229,150,3500) ).
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Differences between Lifestyler and BTB

When we read the book, we take in information that we know that would be near or impossible completely to recreate fully in our real lives.

let's take my life for example, i'm not afraid to say my life right now.

because of my work, i can't go live with my Jarl. Because of his work, he can't come to me. (plus our families and friends make it hard to go)

because of my work, i can't be around all the times that i wish i could, same situation for my Jarl and for many other people.

Because of my real life family, i get interrupted when i'm trying to serve someone.

Because of my health and allergies, i can't eat any of that vile gruel with fish in it...sorry, allergic to fish. (takes hers without the fish)

there are a few other reasons that make what girls would normally do in the books, near impossible  not to mention that there is a law against public nudity..sorry.

plus, unless you wan't an STD filled girl...i suggest not passing her to everyone in your city... *laughs*

not to overlook that if you walk into a bar, pull a random girls and tell her "paga, harta." that you will be looked at like a creeper most likely.

Thus, due to reasons like these i have listed and diffidently chortled about above, there has been a change in the definition in "Gorean lifestle" lifestyle meaning the way you carry out your life, The "Gorean Lifestyle" has become over the years more of a way of philosophy and idea then of actually doing the acts described in the books. Though some people do have the opportunity to carry out most of the things described in the books.

hell, i've been in a house before were their den room was turned into a tavern like no other, it was to the key of gorean, and it was perfect! it was so beautiful, i was watching them at the point, i never got to serve, but it was just beautiful and jaw dropping to see something like that in real life.

I do have plans, when i have the oputunity, no matter how long from now, i do wish to be back within the real life ways soon. though, as best i can, i try to make everything as "real" as possible, skype, one Jarl only, telling my Jarl of my rl stuff and information, etc.

that was my little blab about that, :) if you have any topics to suggest let me know by dropping me a message on FB or on SL 

This week I assume

well, a huge yay for my Jarl finaly able to find a viewer that does not bitch at mesh! yay! i was so afraid that i would have to go out and buy more flexi primmy hair! phew! -.-

anyways..that was random has heck!

moving on, tomorrow, it will be Friday *(^.^)* yay! so i will get out of work early and get to go swimming with some of my friends, though i will come home, annoy my Jarl a bit as usual, and RP a bit more. I recently had to take a break from my RP because i was busy on SL getting land and making it pretty, that task is ALMOST done. So i will have to be going back into my RP this weekend because the building and decorating and such is driving me insane. YAY RP

I did get a really nice kirtle that i wanted for a long time, finally bought it and it's just SO DAMN ADORABLE! (left click to enlarge)

aside from that, though, i need to rewrite my RP story a bit and switch things around a bit. Same concept though just need a few things changed, need to tell the physician and the scribe to change my hair color back.

though, i do have work to attend to tomorrow  so i can't post much. i edited the page "My Jarl" on my blog (scroll up and check it out!) so i did do something today at least.

wish all Jarls soft furs with pleasing sluts. Wish all Mistresses soft pillows a fluffy dresses! wish all slaves the opportunity to be found pleasing this eve,

xxx

petals